Totally GAY

When I was 12.. I already knew that I was totally GAY. I loved to play with girly things. I loved long hair and I actually wanted to be a girl. My thoughts always made me hesitate if I wanted to be a girl or boy but I wanted to be a boy. I want to be a fashion designer, dancer and a big and famous singer. I told my parents that I am gay and I told my brother too. The only thing he said was "Ok" but I saw fear in his eyes, his eyes were getting smaller and smaller I knew he wanted to say something awkward and he did. "But, why you don't try to kiss/fuck a girl?" My answer was "Because if I would.. I would lie to myself".

"You can try and try what you want.. but if you can't make decisions you actually say that you can't accept yourself"